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It's 10:30 p.m. on July 10, and I just checked my final exam scores. Last night, score reports from other schools were already circulating online; I only just got a screenshot of the class scores. I don't know what the grade team is doing.
Final Exams
The screenshot I got doesn't include the grade ranking, but I estimate I'm around 100th. Physics and biology were both around 90, and math was okay this time too—those pretty much met expectations. But chemistry tanked, and English, once a subject I was strong in and where I often ranked in the top 20 in the grade for the single subject, also got a very mediocre score this time.
One is the subject I've put a lot of effort into recently, and the other is the subject I used to be proud of; both let me down on this exam, and I kind of don't know what to do..
The English decline didn't actually start with this exam; the trend began in the second semester of sophomore year: the seven-choose-five questions make my head hurt, my cloze is terrible, I can't find all the errors in error correction, and I can't even get 20 on my essay anymore. Later, before finals, I did cloze exercises for several weeks in a row, and this final exam's cloze finally wasn't terrible anymore. But then I crashed on reading again. The reading passages were simple, but the options were a bit ambiguous, and I'm especially prone to tripping up on that.
Chemistry is really far off from my estimated score.. I didn't bring the paper home; I'll confirm at school when I go for extra classes.
The 17th Year
So fast—I'm already 17.
《Thoughts of 17th》
The last time I wrote such a long passage because of my birthday was when I was 13; another 4 years have passed.
I don't pay much attention to my birthday, and I don't often talk about it with others. I don't think I've ever invited friends either—it's usually celebrated by my parents taking me out to eat.
In fact, I've always hated celebrating birthdays and hated growing up.
"I don't want to grow up"—I've been telling my parents this since I was 7, all the way until 17. It sounds childish, but to me, growing up means family members getting older, burdens getting heavier, and the finish line getting closer. Yet growing up, parting, and death are paths everyone must take; no one can escape them.
My birth brought pain to my mother and also brought financial pressure to my family at the time. Even now, I keep adding trouble to my family. Sometimes I've thought how great it would be if I hadn't been born—then there'd be no worries about life and death, and I'd reduce other people's burdens—of course, this is just random thinking; after all, I've already come here.
But regardless, I've already entered my 17th year.
This is a passage I posted on Qzone on the night of my birthday. I'm the kind of person who easily gets sentimental at certain specific moments..
I'm 17 now. Well, I'll cherish it.
Odds and Ends
- The grade team said the non-tiered exam would be easy—that was a lie! It was so hard.
- Bought a cheap BaiGuang T12 soldering iron and soldered an AUX cable that cost ￥ 8.1, made of single-crystal copper (allegedly)..
- Vacation started on July 8, and I have to come back on the evening of July 12 for evening self-study and start extra classes.. Only four days off and I still have to organize my math notes, but when I think about how bad the math teacher's reputation is, I feel better.
- Bought a copy of Professional JavaScript for Web Developers (4th Edition), wanting to learn JS systematically.. Before, I'd only learned it bit by bit, and later I found that coding that way doesn't work—I always get stuck..
- Since the second semester of sophomore year, I've basically always taken exams in Class 2, and the AC keeps dying. Fortunately, we're moving classrooms in senior year—yay.
Miscellaneous Photos
The blue plumbago I bought at Hongyue really blooms a lot; since I brought it home, it's already bloomed 3 times.
A railing I found while flipping through my photo album. It's rusty and has a bit of a ruins vibe, so I took it out and adjusted the colors.